Sometimes I wonder how Dorothy does it. Living only in the moment- not being able to remember-from -moment to moment. It seems to me that most of the time it doesn’t bother her – especially if she’s active with her friends. When I get her and take her out- she always sings her song- several times- but she also alwaystells me how much she appreciates me coming and getting her out and about.
I am hopeful that she does not sing her song to her friends all day long. Or maybe that’s what they do all day – sing to each other. But I doubt it- there is so much going on they do keep busy.
I can always tell when she has had a bad day- or she’s not ready for it to end. She sings about getting a lawyer to help her and how unfair it is for her to be where she is. The intensity in her voice rises on the worst days- and I wonder what’s going on in her mind. Is her brain hurting? Is she hallucinating? Is she in pain? Or is she just confused? I wonder if we will ever know what goes on in the minds of the demented.
Dementia is like a cold- everyone experiences different symptoms. Some of us can power through the cold and some of us just stop and let it overtake us- until it decides to leave. Drunks have different symptoms too- some are happy – some are sad- some are violent. It boggles the mind trying to figure it all out.
I wonder how long she will have to live like this.
Peace & Love,