AAAAUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!! I’m having a Charlie Brown moment. Sigh!
Dorothy has called twice today, and the Full Moon was 4 days ago, LOL- what’s up?
She called me first thing to let me know she was ready to go home. I listened to her reasoning and told her there was nothing I could do about it today- that I would be there on Friday to help her figure it out.
It’s noon and she’s calling again- I answer and it’s the same song- so I listen and tell her that she has to figure out a way to make this situation the best that she can- because she cannot go home. Mom, you are home- and you have to understand that you have it much better than lots of other folks who are in the state ran facilities- who share a room and a bathroom with up to 4 other people. Look at what you have and embrace it- it doesn’t get any better than this. She said “yes Cheryl I do have it better than some other people. But I do not understand why I have to be here, and her song starts from the beginning.
I hate it for her- I cannot imagine what she is going through in these moments- with the exception of being on the other end and hearing it.
At some point there will be a time when I will say ok- I give. I can’t do this anymore. But for now, I totally understand that for some reason – I am to be her person. The Angels will tell me when it is time to let go. And I will – it will be hard, but I will.
Mercy is needed for all those suffering with this terrible disease- May God bless them all.
Love and Light!
Cheryl Doreen