Rough Month

It’s October 2020, and it’s the month of two full moons- the second, known as the Blue Moon -will be on Halloween, October 31^st.  How fun will that be if it’s a beautiful clear night and the moon and stars are shining bright?  That is what I’m hoping for (-:   

Dorothy is calling more frequently again throughout the day- not just at sundowners.   Her song these days is “I want to come home, I don’t need to be here, there is nothing to do here, I don’t want to be here.   If I don’t get to come home, I’m going to sue Paul for putting me here without my approval.”   She’s mad, she’s real mad.  It’s hard to listen to and it’s harder to get her calmed down when she is in this mindset.   She cries, she does not know how to get outside, she’s lonely, she’s tired, she’s confused. She is scared.

I hate that she is going through this disease- I hope she does not have to suffer much longer. I pray that the good Lord will shower her with Grace and Peace and take her on home.  

But maybe this is her path and she is right where she needs to be, doing what she needs to be doing.  I just wish that she could be happy while going through this disease- I wish she would sing like no one is listening, dance like no one is watching – I’m pretty sure she is when she is not in the mindset of not wanting to be there. Because every time I go see her, everyone tells me how much they love her.  

I do wish that just once she would call and not sing me her song- just once I’d like her to call so we could talk like we used to talk.  I really miss that. I miss you mom.

Love and Light!

Cheryl Doreen